I could write about how prepared I feel for my contracts final tomorrow. I could write about how I spent all weekend studying my butt off, and now I feel calm and confidant. I could write about how I went to mass this morning with some RCIA buddies and how I feel very uplifted and centered—ready for the week.
But I have the laptop and I’m looking at Joe, asleep on the couch after one of his busiest weeks ever, and he’s all I can think about. I’ve been ruminating lately on love (or anything other than law school, lets get real)… and last night I had some thoughts that I’d like to share.
After braving the Mall of America to do some Christmas shopping, Joe and I stayed up late talking and watched a bit of TV. A thought crossed my mind, around midnight, when I should have already been asleep. I thought, “There just aren’t enough minutes in a day to spend with Joe. Even when we’re together ALL day, it could never be enough.” In that moment I imagined that perhaps I loved Joe more than anyone has ever loved anyone else…
But then I realized: that is what love is. Love makes you feel like you might very well be the best at something. The best in the whole world. There are very few things that we are comfortable being superlative about, in regards to ourselves. But when you love—when you love unconditionally and truly—you feel powerful. You can honestly believe, if just for moments, that your love might be the most special thing in the whole world. In a world BURSTING with beauty and glory. We all, I hope, at times harbor the secret that we think and hope ours is the best.
Our love for family. Our love for friends. Our love for our soulmate. Our love for God.
And I think that the reason for this is that loving is what we were created to do. Its the one thing that we all can go through life knowing is keeping us on the right path. I am so grateful to have a life so full of love.
One prayer that I read today, which is so simple and so lovely, I think applies beautifully and I hope it helps lead you into a beautiful week:
Lord, teach us to forget ourselves in loving you and our neighbor.
Think of me tomorrow from 1-5!!!